“One day, his brain broke– or maybe it wasn’t just in one day?” LOST MIND is a first-person dance theater exploration of the psyche by director, writer, and choreographer Sara Silkin. LOST MIND recounts her inability to identify her father's mental illness throughout her life. With her powerful application of surrealist movement imagery, she recreates the emotional yet physical highs and lows experienced during a manic episode.
Bipolar disorder is an often maligned, highly misunderstood mental illness. From colloquialisms such as “the weather is bipolar” to accusations of women being “bipolar exes,” we often view individuals with bipolar disorder as unstable, prone to violence and destructive tendencies, complete with unmanageable mood swings. But more often, individuals with bipolar disorder are likely to be victims of abuse and crime– which is what happened to my father. At the age of fifty-seven, he entered a pyramid scheme during his first manic episode. It was confusing to witness his euphoric, “on top of the world,” and being able to do or accomplish anything attitude. It looked like extreme optimism — but on steroids. It didn't last long and everything quickly came crashing down.
Since December 2019, I have been working on LOST MIND, a fifteen minutes dance-theater piece that processes and reconstructs my family's personal bipolar story through the use of gesture, spoken word, and multimedia projection. The headless woman allows me to become multiple characters by pulling out a mask to become my mother, adjusting reading glasses in the negative space to portray a doctor, or even projecting images of my father's face into my hands
Due to the unpredictable times, we are ALL experiencing, I am currently working on LOST MIND as a solo show. BeforeCovid-19, I had intended to finish the piece with a headless father-daughter dance that ends on the image of the father slowly slipping out of the coat during their final embrace, leaving his headless daughter only with his exterior shell.
This is my story, it needs to be told... at The Redcat perhaps?
Collaborators: Music by
USC SCHOOL OF CINEMATIC ARTS MFA 2018
Film and Production
UCLA BA 2012
World Arts & Cultures
Curated dance showcase held at the SweatSpot in LA.
This is for You spoken word movement piece.
Choreographed Hundred Waters whole set.
WALT DISNEY CONCERT HALL DREAM PROJECT 2018
Collaborated with artist Refik Anadol on MoCap and choreography for the site-specific projection.
HOLLYWOOD FOREVER CEMETERY 2016
Explosions in the sky album release.
LOS ANGELES COUNTY MUSEUM OF ARTS ARTWALK 2012
Collaborated with the company SZC to create site-specific work.
FORD THEATER PRESENTS L.A DANCE INVITATIONAL 2012
Presented original choreography.